Up close and personal

(picture not from today. Thought if I saw myself smiling I would feel better)


Feelin' kinda blah today. Body's not really liking going to bed at 11:00 or later and gettting up at 5:00-5:30. Been trying to hit the sack by no later than 10:00, but it's just not working out. I'm trying out some new units at school, and the planning is eating up a great deal of my time.

I've needed a nap every day this week but Monday.

It kinda sucks, you know. The doctor said I could go symptom free for years. I realize I've only been taking the medication for one month (not even yet), but just when I think that maybe I'm "normal" again, my body sends me a little wake-up call. Like today. It's hard for me to go up and down the steps because my knee hurts. It's hard for me to write or type because my thumb hurts. My shoulder aches when I move it. I've had a headache non-stop for the past 2 days. And right now, I'm getting pretty cranky because I'm still tired and I still have lots to do.

I have to go meet the teachers. I have to figure out what Creative Writing and English 11 CP are going to do tomorrow. I have to figure out what English 9 and CP English 9 are going to do with their Independent Reading Project, which I told them about today, but have yet to figure out. Laundry needs to be done. A grocery list needs to be put together. The floors need to be mopped. And here I sit blogging. Feeling bummed out.

But, the funny thing is, I know it's going to be okay. I know today is just a blip on my radar and that when I wake up tomorrow, I'll feel completely different. I realize the potential for another bad day is there, but usually, it doesn't happen that way. So, I'll suck it up today, and look forward to tomorrow.

Luckily, there's always the hope for a better tomorrow.