New Year, new chance

I always feel hopeful on the first day of a new year and this year is no different. Last year I chose a word to kind of live by--organize--which you can reread here if you want. I did lots and lots and lots of projects that helped me be more organized. Subconsciously, this one little word influenced my life. I decided to pick a word for this year.....

CREATE

As I reflect on 2010, I realize that it was just a year. Granted, this year was filled with wonderful memories, but it was a year not much different from any other year except that we all got a little older and hopefully a little smarter.

But, I'm not sure I really made something of that year. I just tried to get through each day. Most weeks I spent 5 days praying for 2. I plodded my way through the week just wishing for the weekend. I also spent 9 months waiting for 3. So, I am going to spend the year creating...

creating a life that I love living.

I am going to create a new sense of style...hair, make up, clothes. I'm going to seek out interesting pieces and take the time to make myself look the way I want to look (I first have to decide what that look is!!)

I am going to create a house I love, one that envigorates me every time I walk into it. I like my house now, but I want to love it. So, I am thinking of a new color scheme for the first floor, for Emily's bedroom, and some home decor decorating projects, especially using pictures.

I am going to create a better teacher. I have to work; there is no option, and I don't hate my job. I'm just burned out. I need to find a way to reinvent myself in the classroom.

I am going to create a happier marriage. I made a decision several months ago to be active in my relationship with Ray and make it the kind of marriage I wanted. For all these years, I just let things happen on their own. This year, I'm going to create more memories and bonding time for me and Ray.

I am going to create closer relationships with my daughters by spending time with them and helping them cultivate their minds and their individual interests.

I am going to create my own photography business. I may not be able to go into official business this year, but I will make big strides in getting there by educating myself and honing my skill and collecting the necessary equipment. And I'm going to enjoy the process.

I am going to create a more spiritual self. I have lost touch with my faith and plan to bring that back into my life whether through Catholicism or a nondenominational church.

And, I am going to create an awesome physique. I am going to proudly wear that bikini this summer. I'm tired of putting junk in my body. I want to create a healthier version of myself.


WHEW! 8 major areas for improvement...I want to be bold this year. Taking chances, stepping out of my comfort zone, is soooo hard for me. Focusing on CREATE as my one little word will hopefully inspire me to be brave this year.