In this moment

In this moment I am 

•enjoying...seeing the sunshine...smelling the bacon Ray is cooking for breakfast...my cup of coffee...seeing Hannah reading on the couch...watching Emily help her dad with breakfast by cleaning off the counter.

•thinking...about how frustrated I am with myself right now. I am having trouble getting motivated to work out, keeping the house clean, staying on top of teaching, accomplishing the goals I set for myself, advancing my photography, getting a qualified tenant into our empty house

•eating...nothing at the moment but very soon I will have some eggs and turkey bacon.

•drinking...coffee

•wearing...what I slept in...black adidas sweat pants, pink Volley for the Cure hoodie, socks, and my old Sylvan t-shirt

•listening to...bacon sizzling in the pan, the heat coming through the vents

•wanting...so much...new clothes, a better body, a thriving photography business, inspiration, motivation, physical attention, organization, relaxation, and A FEW SNOW DAYS!!!! ALSO, A QUALIFIED TENANT IN OUT EMPTY HOUSE AND FOR RALPH TO WIN HIS SOCIAL SECURITY SUIT AND PAY US THE MONEY HE OWES US

•weather...is sunny! Pretty sure it's chilly out since there is frost on the deck and the heat is going.

•feeling...stuck. When things overwhelm me, I just shut down. Also excited because we are planning two vacations this summer! Cruise to the Bahamas with Hans and Ronda and Florida with members of my family

•wondering...WHEN THE SNOW IS GOING TO COME!!! WHEN WE ARE GOING TO GET GREAT TENANTS!! WHEN WILL RALPH PAY US!!!