Reminding myself

I have been doing lots of pondering as I always do when the year starts to wane and a new one is on the horizon. I've also been looking back through my blog and reminiscing about times gone by. I am so lucky that I have kept this blog and that I was fearless in my pictures taking. With one computer gone and an external hard drive as well, I have very few pictures left to peruse. If I hadn't kept this blog, if I hadn't carried that camera with me almost everywhere I went, I wouldn't have those memories. They would have crashed with my computer or fried with my external hard drive. 

Ever since I decided to focus on photography as a business, I stopped carrying that camera with me. The pressure to be the photographer is sometimes just too much. I feel like people expect me to get "the shot" a lot and it takes the fun out of photography. But at the same time, I realize that a lot of this perceived pressure comes from me. Yes, it is true that I have been expected to be the one who documents the occasion instead of just enjoying it, but wouldn't I have documented it anyway? Yes, yes I would, and this is what I need to remember going into 2012: I love photography. I love capturing moments. I love the compliment I receive when someone asks me to take their pictures or counts on me to document their experiences. I love the creativity behind it. I love that with the quick click of a button, I can stop time forever. I can permanently capture a memory (that is until a computer or hard drive crashes! lol) to be enjoyed long after the moment has passed. 

So, one of my resolves for 2012 is to be fearless once again in my picture taking. I am going to carry a camera with me at all times and use it without abandon. I am going to capture those small and large moments so that I can continue to cherish them over and over. This also means that I am going to return to this blog. For me. I kinda lost sight of what this blog means to me. It became a place for me to post pictures I took of others. Keeping this blog has made me appreciate the small things in life that matter the most. I need to find that again. I can't wait to find that again!!!!

Lookout 2012!!!! I am going to document the hell out of you!!!